I mean, sometimes I resent him, not that I hate it. And it could be me being silly, or it could actually be justified, but I waver back and forth between them so often I don’t know which end is up. Ever since this work from home began back in March, I was sedentary. Besides … More I hate that I resent my husband. Sometimes.
When I was at my hairdresser’s last night, we were talking about COVID (obviously, what else is there to talk about??) In any case, we were chatting about how much our lives had changed since everything “went down” in March. My hairdresser was saying how much she used to complain when life was “normal” and … More I wish I had never complained
I feel it peeking out from behind the lounge chairs I sit in while the kids swim in the pool. I feel it lurking behind the tv as my husband and I watch shows together at night. I feel it in the responses to my husband as he asks me how my day was. The … More I can feel myself falling again.
Do you ever have that feeling that things are continuing as they are, but everything is slightly skewed? I felt this way when I lost my ex to the car accident. It was as if I knew he was truly gone, but my life just kept going. I was in a bubble and couldn’t pop … More The before and after limbo
The other night, my husband and I were watching The Office and the episode where Jim and Pam have to live apart for three months was on. My husband said something to the effect of, “wow we’ve never been a part for that long!” I was contemplating this, and then he exclaimed, “No, wait! There … More Your past mistakes are meant to guide you, not define you.
Recently, I’ve felt a very strange sense of self. I often find myself just sitting, searching my brain for something, yet I don’t know what. I thought at first it was being at home for so long (SINCE MARCH 13) that I was finally desensitized to everything, therefore, I no longer had to do anything. … More The opposite of anxiety
I dated a black man 19 years ago. I’d like to say that times are different now, or that they were different then, but they are not. I never realized just how much stigma there is to date interracially until now. I mean, sure I knew back then, me being white and he black that … More Trying to make sense of all of this
My husband and I were watching a show the other night where the couple broke up. The woman was talking about how long they lusted after each other, which is probably why it didn’t last; since they had acted upon their lust and sufficiently satisfied that, the coupledom didn’t last long after. It got me … More Love vs. Lust; or Love AND Lust?
Yes, I am in that part of the relationship that I analyze everything. We’ve been together for the better part of 16 years, more if you count our dating, and it’s all gotten mucked up. I feel like our communication has begun to feel like that old game of telephone, where the saying at the … More Playing telephone, without the other players
When I knew we were in it for the long haul, I thought there would be a lot of things that would be hard to take. Obviously, stuck in the house with my kids, not celebrating my 40th in style, missing out of a girls’ trip and a trip with my husband. But there is … More The Simplest of Things